An Old Man

 

An old man is walking down a long beach
white hair, a ruined face, his walking stick
punctures the sand
A blue day, with slow waves washing
Seagulls fly above the rocky cliff inland

Behind and around the old man
are shades, phantoms, shadow people
that follow him

There is a young boy
holding a red apple
He is pointing the apple
at the sea

A teenage boy, holding hands
with a blond girl
she has braids down her back

A young man in fatigues
an m16 in his left hand
a confluence of blood
pouring down his right arm
into the air

A middle-aged man
in work clothes
small holes in the knees of his jeans
from daily, repetitive labor

3 children, a boy and 2 girls
run in circles, playing on the beach
their feet make no imprint in the sand

An older man, his hair graying
follows
A woman of similar age
her long braids graying, walks with him
They are also holding hands

The old man, with the ruined face
walks a little farther
stops, looking about him
He sits down on the beach, then lays
his walking stick by his side

The shades, the phantoms, gather slowly
gather around the old man
as he contemplates the clear, blue sky
One by one
the shades, the phantoms, the shadow people
disappear inside him

ROUND TRIP CHAPTER 4

2 Tickets to Hanau

I walked up to the ticket agent window at the Frankfurt Airport Train Station. It was very late at night, few people lingered in the station. In my best college German I said, “Gutten abend. Meine Frau und ich have just arrived from California. We would like to take the train into Frankfurt to find a hotel room.”

The ticket agent looked at me through coke bottle lenses. He seemed to be processing my American student German that sounded like pouring gravel into a tin bucket. “Gutten abend. I am sorry to inform you that there are no available hotel rooms in Frankfurt.”

“Es gibt keine hotel rooms in all of Frankfurt?” I was incredulous. No rooms in a city of thousands of hotel rooms? “How could that be?”

The ticket agent again peered at me for a moment. He looked tired, like he was just getting ready to end his shift. Sally and I were certainly looking forward to ending our shift and sleeping off our long trip in the smoking tube in a nice hotel bed.

“Entschuldigen Sie,my apologies sir. There is an International Book Fair in Frankfurt. There are thousands of visitors. It appears that most of the Pakistani book enthusiasts are in Frankfurt.”

“Pakistan?”

“Yawohl.”

“Und thousenden Pakistanishes book enthusiasts have rented all the hotel rooms in Frankfurt?”

“Yawohl, und many others from different countries. The International Book Fair is a very large annual event in Frankfurt.”

“Mein Gott, do you have any suggestions on what we can do?”

“Yawohl, you may stay in the train station until morning. But I am sorry, you would have to stand up. There are rules against lying down on train station benches. I am sorry.”

Sally heard that, “I can’t stay in the train station. I’m pregnant. This station smells like sausages and it’s making me woozy.”

I repeated Sally’s comments to the agent in Deutch. He looked at Sally with concern. “Perhaps you could take the train the Hanau. It is about the same distance as Frankfurt city center. 30 kilometers. There are sure to be rooms available there.”

Sally nodded. I fumbled with my wallet. “Bitte, zwei bahntickets nach Hanau.”

Sal and I took up our positions sitting on a station bench near the track for the Hanau train. Not standing. We could sit if we didn’t stay there all night. Sally looked at me, “Sausages. Stand up in the train station. No rooms. SO FAR, SO BAD. I don’t think I will ever eat a sausage again.”

“Sorry babe, we’ll be out of here soon. 5 minutes until the train”. Continue reading “ROUND TRIP CHAPTER 4”

Pilgrimage

Suddenly Angelina is standing by her bed.  It is 2 am. Angelina is in her small bedroom in her small house in Phoenix.  She does not know if she is still asleep or if she is awake.

Angelina is standing in the warm blue sky looking down on what appears to be a well laid out pastel city. She wonders if she is dreaming.  Is this a dream of flying.

Angelina stands in that warm blue sky for what seems to be hours.  Or long minutes. Or days.

She is now standing on warm sand at the gate of the pastel city.  She recognizes it as a graveyard.  But unlike any graveyard in Phoenix.

She hears a voice.  Welcome.  No there are 2 voices, a man and a women.  They are speaking Spanish.

Who is there Angelina asks in Spanish.  She knows a little Spanish but here in the pastel graveyard she is fluent. She is thinking in Spanish.

We are here.  Over here.  Angelina sees faint outlines of a couple neither young nor old.  They seem far away but perhaps right in front of her.  She does not know.

Angelina asks Who are you.

Please come in they answer.

Where am I.

Mexico they answer. Baja California Sur.  Your family is here. You are here.

I am from Phoenix.  My family is from many places.

Yes they say.  Many places

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Angelina walks through the graveyard.  It is beautiful.  She had always thought of graveyards, of death, as depressing.  A grey place.  But not this graveyard of color and light.  Statues, loving notes, piles of spent candles, striking painted shrines, humble block and unfinished grave houses line orderly dirt streets. Exquisite architectures of the dead.

She looks at the names on graves.  She sees headstones and shrines with names that she does not recognize but somehow knows.  Orozco, Galves Soto, Gutierres Manriquez, Guerrero.  She opens a candle niche, several candle niches.  They all have candles.  The living have been attentive to the rituals of the dead. The living and the dead meet here often.

Angelina walks through the graveyard. Angelina says out loud This is a living place of the dead.

She calls out to the couple Where are you.  Will you talk to me.  Why am I here.

There is only the silence of the sun above and a small breeze bumping and shimmering the artificial flowers that have been placed at the graves. She calls out again.

 

Angelina is standing by her bed.  It is 7 am. Angelina is in her small bedroom in her small house in Phoenix.  She does not know if she is still asleep or if she is awake. The silent sun is just breaking through her bedroom window.  She is awake.

Angelina walks into her kitchen to make coffee.  She sees something on the counter.  It is a word on a piece of lined paper torn from a notebook.

 

 

 

 

Round Trip Chapter 3

LA TO FRANKFURT

6 am. Today it will be 103 degrees at LAX.  We sat in the terminal looking out at the tarmac through green onion soup smog left over from yesterday. And the day before.  There was our plane.  A 707,  LA to Frankfurt. We could see the stewardesses boarding on the portable staircases.  Orange bubble hats, orange & black skirts, black scarves.  The 707 was trimmed with orange and black.  The 60’s ended just a couple of years ago, but the colors persisted.

Sally looked at me, “We board soon.”

“Yes, the bubble hats have gone inside that long silver tube that is our flight.”

“I’m glad I don’t have to wear one of those hats.  Morning sickness is bad enough.”

As we boarded Sally perked up a little.  At the top of the staircase, we were greeted by an orange bubble hat that sat gingerly on top of a head of shellacked blond hair.  She was almost friendly as she directed us toward the front of the plane.

We were not sure why we were boarding, why we were flying to Europe on this smoggy September day.  But there was something mandatory about the post college trip to Europe at that time in history.  Even with Vietnam still raging, even with Nixon in office.  Well, I wanted to go.  Needed to go.  Sal was ambivalent.  Of course, we had just found out that Sal was pregnant. But we had tickets bought on the cheap through International Students Fake Charter Company of America.  The ball was rolling down hill and we didn’t know how to stop it.

Oh, and did I mention the cold war? That should have helped slow us down.   Nope, not, never.  Hellbent.

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Fortune Donuts

Allen sat on the couch in front of the TV eating his lunch and watching a Mexican Telenovella. The Televovellas were, to Allen, wonderful stories of Love and Heroism.   He had just gotten home from school.  He had one hour before he had to go to work selling donuts to Gringos in front of the water store in his village. His Mama made the donuts every day.  She made sugar donuts and custard filled with chocolate topping.
“Guadalupe,” Mama said, “10 minutes and the donuts will be ready.  5 sugar, 5 custard.  Just like every day.  Let us see if you can sell them.”
“ Mama, please call me Allen. It is my new name you know,” replied Allen.
His Mama always said the same thing when this issue came up, “You will always be Guadalupe to me.”
“Allen. Please Mama.”
“Guadalupe to me.”
“I like Allen.”
“Allen, I like Guadalupe.”
Then they both laughed.  Allen got up from the couch and washed his dishes from lunch.  He was good like that for an 11 year old boy.  He didn’t want his Mama to work too hard to raise him and his brother Alfonso. Continue reading “Fortune Donuts”

Faith Healin

The Food and Fun was crowded as usual, a kind of food Disneyland. Though I ain’t never been to Disneyland, just guessin. Food because it has food in every isle, fun because it had a bunch of ride on toys for a quarter in a little kiddie corral. You know, horses, cars, fire trucks. I stood in line at checkout stand number 9. A lady with 2 kids had 3 gallons of ice cream in her cart. Also 3 packages of Ho Hos, bread, and frozen chicken fingers.  I always wondered where the chickens kept their fingers.  Don’t know. The kids didn’t seem happy about anything, not as happy as they should with all of that ice cream, and were screaming and pulling each other’s hair.  I tried to look straight ahead, ignoring the wild kids and the grocery cart. It was hard.  You just want to look.  Can’t help it. Then I heard a yelp from outside, like a dog being struck by a car or kicked by a local curmudgeon. Just as I started to unload my cart onto the little moving table the checker asked “What was that?”

            “Don’t know,” said the bagger.  “Sounded like a dog, but it coulda been a kid.”

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Jaque Mate

Don Miguel and Don Paulo played chess at a small table under the mango tree every day at 10 am.  The mango tree was in the town square of El Pueblo in the low, coastal mountains of Baja California Sur. El Pueblo was their town. They were the Jefe Dons. The Jefes usually played for 1 hour, then the rest of the day could unfold as it might.

The Priest Diego de Santo was always in attendance.  Padre Diego or Padre Hippy, as he was often called by his varied flock. He brought from the seminary long hair and the game of chess.  He was the coach.  He watched as Don Paulo struggled with his opening, looking this way and that, cracking his knuckles, sighing.  Don Paulo looked at Padre Diego, Padre Diego looked at Don Paulo and uttered a simple opening, “King Knight to f3.” Don Paulo made the move.

Don Miguel knows this opening.  Everyone knew this opening.  But he couldn’t remember the classic answer exactly.  He looked at Padre Diego, then up at the sky.  At that moment a twin engine aircraft flew over the town of El Pueblo.  There was no sound of motors.  The engines were not running.  There was only the sound of the wind through the propellers as they spun slowly and the hum of the wind as it passed over the gliding airframe.  The aircraft went over a ridge north of El Pueblo.  Padre Diego, Don Miguel, Don Paulo, and Cha Cha, the keeper of the Cantina Los Angeles, watched the Avion disappear. Then they all heard a loud thump.  A cloud of dust ascended from the back of the ridge and billowed into the town square on the breeze.

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Round Trip Chapter 2

Good Doc/Bad Doc

I was sitting on a bus in downtown hometown USA.  The bus was purring at idle.  The destination plaque announced OAKLAND INDUCTION CENTER. 19 year old boys were drifting in one by one.

A couple of weeks before I came through the door from my seasonal construction job Sally called out to me, “You got another letter from the draft board.  What now?”

I knew what.  A month after I graduated from college I lost my 2S middle class, white boy, student deferment. And now I knew I was being drafted. It was 1971 and Vietnam was still hoppin.  I opened the letter, “Yeah, I am ordered to report September 26 to the Oakland Induction Center for a draft physical.”

“Oh, so what do we do if you get drafted?” Sally was worried but rarely showed it.

“I don’t know.  Let’s see what happens.”  Sal did not like the sound of that. I tried to be calm, not freak out Sally. And normally I tended to freak Sally out.  Couldn’t do it.  I FREAKED! We spent the night going over options.  Canada?  Maybe.  Guatemala?  Better, since we had little money.  Go into the ARMY.  FUCK NO!  Then we came up with a PLAN.

I applied for conscientious objector status when I was a freshman.  Nothing happened.  I had a severe handicap.  I was raised Catholic, a particular war like religion. The Crusades, the Black Ships, and, the perennial favorite, The Inquisition.  ROMAN CATHOLIC didn’t look good on a CO application.  My app was probably filed under “War Monger.” Continue reading “Round Trip Chapter 2”

Dictum

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Learning to breathe
Learning to fall, turning slightly
as I plummet
and focus on the greenery as it unfolds
Learning the scale of the seasonal moon
shadows in the darkness
and silent birds by the thousands
alive on the thin wires tied to our wrists

Learning to recognize tombs among the stones
Learning where the angels hold hands
their footprints outlined in the soft moss
Learning where to wait, where to listen
when to stop
Learning to take from the lake
the launch of the crane
infinite neck and blue wings
focused against a thin moon
Learning to swim, breath water
wait for the vision
which takes me back to the beginning
and I’ll get another chance
I’ll get another chance

Learning to crush a violet between thumb and palm
Learning that crushed flowers may
or may not be
an apt metaphor
crush flowers anyway
Learning to pray by dreaming backwards
Learning to walk through fire and mud
while waking to the sound of still air
Learning to listen to pebbles as they bump one another
in the shallow waves
Learning to spot loneliness
and, in a disciplined manner
respond only with touch or music